A random moment this Sunday morning of the long weekend
An assortment of snacks from last night spread across the table
There is something about the high I get from fulfilling my sense desires
Sense Desire:
An action performed which specifically satiates the hunger of one or more of the 6 senses available to me
Eating a bag of Ketchup chips acts on my sense of touch, taste, sight smell and sound.
So 5 out of 6
Not bad
Now consuming that many chips some times feels good and some times feels bad
Setting out to write this morning my desire wasn’t to make a blanket on what is a good or bad snack for me
My sole purpose is to continuously be aware that at the level of my senses I am constantly consuming
Whether I am ingesting
food, drink, ideas, images
it doesn’t matter
every thing I take in through my senses effects me
regardless of whether that’s a whole pizza, salad,
self help YouTube videos,
or QT pie insta reels
As someone who has lived following his desires more often than he would like to admit one thing that is clear to me
My desire isn’t found by what I think
but
by what I decide to consume
I know eating a whole pizza will make me feel stiff, bloated and lethargic the day after but some times what I desire is at the beginning of consumption
in other words
the crime is worth the time
in the same way I might spend three hours scrolling through 100’s of paintings on social media
what I think I desire,
to get inspired and motivated to create
In actuality becomes
Me being overwhelmed, driverless, and despondent
Some media acts on me like health food
Some like cigarettes
In the beginning I have the ability to choose
In the end
Like quitting smoking
Some ideas or habits find a way to attach themselves to me and it requires effort to let them go
But the good news is
I have the ability to let them go